it’s ridiculous, outrageous, preposterous
for me to even consider thinking about this
gnawing, troubling, very very distressing
thing that just popped into this overtaxed mind.

it’s absolutely, totally, utterly, impossible
for me to even dare give you a sliver of attention,
this ridiculous, outrageous, preposterous notion
should never be true – no, never, never ever.

it’s incomprehensible, inconceivable, unbelievable
that i should think of you – oh that single thought
bothers me, agitates me, disorients me to no end,
it should never happen – no, never, never ever.

it’s ridiculous, ludicrous, and a bit disastrous,
no, i shouldn’t miss you – i shouldn’t and wouldn’t,
because it’s mind-boggling, overwhelming, bewildering,
no, i don’t miss you – no, never, never ever.

– this is merely an exercise on synonyms. that is to say that this thing is dedicated to no one in particular. pero kung gusto mong maapektuhan, sino ba naman ako para pigilan ka? 😀

You fit into me
like a hook into an eye

a fish hook
an open eye

– Margaret Atwood, Power Politics

It’s been
too many nights
of being with

to now be suddenly
without

– Jewel Kilcher, A Night Without Armor

She tried to feel, tried to give it all.
But in the end it’s still wanting,
in the end something’s still missing.

So she tried to brace herself
for the impending fall,
not really knowing how painful,
no, not at all.

She tried to reason, tried to understand,
when did things get so out of hand?
Should’ve seen it coming, it was written in stone.
But was it folly to expect she wouldn’t end up alone?

Now she’s lost, fumbling with most
things that should be easy
when hell they are not,
no, not really.

But she’s got to pull away somehow,
got to let go of things somehow.

Because the world is still turning,
and life is too short not to go on living.

And so she gets up and dusts her pants,
not quite ready to look the world
in the eye just yet but not shirking either.

Because life has it’s ups and downs,
and yes she knows how clichéd that sounds.
She knows she might fall flat on her face again,
but she’s not so afraid of that anymore.

At least now she knows that out
there is so much more.

So so much more.

Zipping through the open freeway
Gunning for 120 almost every single day
Not caring about what you’re passing
Eyes looking ahead, never wavering.

Breaking records, winning it all
Gritting your teeth to reach that goal
Who you were with, you didn’t know
What you were feeling, you didn’t show

But baby, shouldn’t you step back
Stop for a while, breathe for a while,
Been cruising quickly in this game of life
Stop for a while and let me have that chance
To see the wonder of your smile.

I take my own way and head on mindlessly
Not as fast as you but almost getting there
It’s almost too late when I had to see
Not again will we cross the path of one another.

So baby, shouldn’t we slam on the breaks
Stop for a while, breathe for a while,
Been moving quickly in this game of life
Stop for a while and let me have that chance
to show you I’m worth your while.

Stop for a while and let me have that chance
oh yeah, I’m really worth your while.