Category Archives: Poetry

Hay, Ikaw Na Naman

12 Tuesday Feb 2008

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tula-lalalala | Originally uploaded by kilcher

Sumagi ka na naman
sa naririndi nang isipang ito.
Bumibilis ang tibok,
kinakabog itong pariwarang puso ko.
Hindi mapigilan ang daloy
ng mga salitang hindi ko rin
mawari kung saan hinuhugot at nagmumula.
Basta ang mahalaga lamang
ay ikaw, ikaw, ikaw,
at ang ngiti mong napakaliwanag,
kumikinang, kumukutitap, nakakabulag.
Oo, ikaw, ikaw nga,
kahit dati pa, ikaw lang naman talaga.

——-

Hoy, IKAW, nasaan ka na ba ha? Nakaka-wala ng ulirat ang mag-abang sa yo, kala mo.

Hihihi. Napanood ko lang po ito sa pelikula. Pati yung note. Hehe. Ang saya-saya maging imbentor pramis. Pero imagine-in niyo na lang kung meron talaga akong pinag-aalayan ng mga salitang ganyan. O di ba ang saya sana? Haha.

Kebeeeeeeeeer!

Pit Stop

27 Sunday Jan 2008

Posted by in Geekdom, Life Oh Life, Poetry, Project Tagalog

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Between the snowboard thing yesterday and finally buying Noodles this morning, I think I’m getting a little too overwhelmed with all the things that I’m planning to do. Add to that the recent blog hikkoshi* and now I’m more pressured to write sensible stuff all the time. I’m thinking of too many projects and I now feel like I won’t even get to start, much less finish them. Gah, suddenly it feels like an avalanche is just waiting to happen.

Some of these projects include:

1. Project Kamay — Hand photography. I have several shots listed but I still have to find other hands. And inspiration — yes, I super need a giant shining shimmering splendid source of inspiration.

2. Project Emotikon — Emotive poses and expressions. Again, I still haven’t found another person who can emote (!) as much as I can so pit stop muna tayo dito. I have two sets done. They’re in my multiply site.

3. Project Tagalog — I can’t even write anymore, much less produce something in Tagalog. I have started this project with a few choice pieces. And there are also some works that I’m a little apprehensive to show to the madlang pipol. Alam mo na, baka mahiritan na naman ako :p

4. Project Luna — I’m not sure if I can do this soon. Sana though. Bago mawala na naman yang buwan na yan.

5. The Checkered Sahara — Re-decorating my Sahara-like (in temperature) room with black and white checkered pattern as the main motif. Good God! I found the drapes at Donki in Ginza! Halleluiah! Next up: that structure where I can hang my oh so many jackets. Guguho na ang aking curtain rods!

6. Learn some more guitar thing and try to memorize chords and whatnots this time. Try not to use the memory gap as an excuse.

7. Finish “Confessor” — OMG, naunahan na ako tapos na ni Ramil! I really need to finish this because I can’t stop thinking about this novel even if I’m not even reading it the past couple of days.

8. Stay updated with UConn. Malapit na ang March Madness. Sabi ko dati babawi ako sa panahong ito.

9. Keep up with Seattle Storm news and get myself ready for the May 2008 season of the WNBA. Oo kailangan ng matinding preps ito.

*Le Sigh*

Too many things to do, too little time, too short an attention span.

I think I need to slam on the breaks and just breathe for a while …, you know, stop for a while and recharge and clear these cobwebs outta my mind. Maybe then, maybe I’ll find a reason to do all the things that I loved to do in the past — if you can already call last week the past. So yeah. Maybe I’m just really tired after all.

Ako ay isang tao lamang, isang mortal na nilalang,
napapagod, nagsasawa, nauubusan ng pinaghuhugutan
ng mga emosyong di ko rin alam kung saan nagmula,
kaya ako ay hihinto na muna, hihinto’t magpapahinga.

hikkoshi — transfer

RollBack

29 Saturday Dec 2007

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Unti-unti na akong nakakawala
sa sumpang kalungkutan ng iyong paglisan
Unti-unti, dahan-dahan, natatanggap na
ang lahat ng iyong kadahilanan.

Malapit na matapos ang mga gabing
maaalimpungatan at magigising na lamang
na basa ng walang-katapusang luha ang mga matang
mugto at sanay na sanay na sa pag-iyak.

Ngunit bakit kaunting salita lamang
mula sa iyo, mga salitang hindi inaasahang
manggagaling pa sa iyo, mga pariralang hindi
ko na inisip pang iuugnay mo sa akin  E/em>

Kaunting salitang pinipigilan kong
tumagos nang tuluyan sa nagdurugo kong puso,
mga salitang humihiwa, sumasaksak, lumalapastangan
sa damdaming mula noon pa’y iningatan na laban sa yo.

Unti-unti na akong nakakawala mula sa yo
ngunit parang naghagis ka ng tali at ako ay nasilo
na naman, na naman, wala na yatang katapusan
babalik na naman ako sa mga gabing balot ng kalungkutan.

———— E

ROLLBACK – a term used in transaction processing that cancels a proposed transaction which modifies one or more tables and undoes changes, if any, made by the transaction before a COMMIT or COMMIT TRANSACTION SQL statement.

Any Other Night

28 Friday Dec 2007

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dsc01444.jpgThis night is just like
any other night
before.

It seems just the same
and yet not.

The laughter, the smiles, the whispered assurances,
all gone now, all gone now.

No more comforting words, only piercing pain,
you’re gone now, you’re gone now.

Usapang Malloc

27 Thursday Dec 2007

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typedef struct data_type {
int duration;
char name[20];
char location[20];
} memory;

memory *source_of_emo;
source_of_emo = (memory*) malloc( sizeof(*source_of_emo) );
source_of_emo->duration = 70;

strcpy( source_of_emo->name, “sikret heehee” );
strcpy( source_of_emo->location, “sikret ulit heehee” );

printf( “kilcher is remembering the memory %p with the name of %s who is located at %s. memory length is %d”, source_of_emo, source_of_emo->name, source_of_emo->location, source_of_emo->duration);
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.
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free( source_of_emo );
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.
.
free( source_of_emo );
.
.
.
ERROR: pointer source_of_emo does not respond;
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free( source_of_emo );
.
.
ERROR: pointer source_of_emo does not respond;
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.
.
ANUBAH! ANAK NG TINALUPANG TINOLA NAMAN! CTRL-ALT-DEL FORCE SHUTDOWN!

——-

Gomen ne. Rusty na ang aking C skills. Kung mali, hayaan na lang hehe. At shoutout kay Apols ⇁Ekasalanan mo ito haha.

The Trick Is To Keep Sleeping

23 Sunday Dec 2007

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while ( tina.sleep() ) {
	tina.status = statusEnum.SAFE;
	if ( tina.awake() && tina.depressed() ) {
		tina.status = statusEnum.DANGEROUS;
		break;
	}
}

She takes a little time in making up her mind
She doesn’t want to fight against the tide
– Garbage, The Trick Is To Keep Breathing

Naliligaw

18 Tuesday Dec 2007

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hindi ko alam kung papaanong nakarating ako
sa mundo mo kung saan ang mga kaluluwang
katulad ko ay wari’y may nakatakdang espasyo.

hindi ko maintindihan kung papaanong nabihag
ng mga salitang iyong isinusulat ang pariwarang
puso kong takot sa kahit na anong hindi pamilyar.

sana sana maramdaman mong may naliligaw
sa mundo mo, naghihintay, nagmamasid, umaasang
sana sana ikaw naman ang maligaw sa mundo ko.

Might Not Be It

15 Saturday Dec 2007

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you pride yourself in your coldness,
your ability to just go with the flow,
the moat and walls around your emotions
fully impenetrable by any blow.

but it takes only a series of words
to show that crack in your armor,
it takes a few sentences to strike you
and bring you down on your knees.

one minute you were walking on even ground,
and the next thing you know you are falling…

…no, falling is such a tame word…

you are dropping, no, you are plummeting,
plummeting into this seemingly endless abyss,
seemingly endless and yet entirely possible
to end anytime soon, a time where you fall flat
on your face, a time fully unexpected.

unexpected? but you were waiting for this,
you just didn’t know when it will be,
and you shudder thinking this still might not be it,
oh, holy horrors, this still might not be it.

Walang Pamagat

12 Wednesday Dec 2007

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marahil masalimuot ang mundong kinabibilangan niya
madalas ang away, walang humpay ang gulo.

marahil dapat protektado siya ng kinalalagyan niya
ngunit para itong isang bilangguang kumakahon,
sumasakop, sumusukob, pumipigil…

marahil inilalayo lamang siya sa panganib
ng mga taong nag-aalala, ng mga taong nagmamahal…

marahil dapat manatili na lamang muna siya
sa kung saan siya ay malayo sa nagbabanggaang bato
ngunit nais niyang magpumiglas, nais niyang makawala.

dahil para sa isang taong nasa loob ng hawla,
wala ng iba pa mang konsepto ng tama
kundi ang minimithing paglaya.