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Come On Now, Say It Again

20 Friday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Life Oh Life, Muzzak

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cheese, marie digby, video, youtube

Minsan lang ako maging cheesy so PAGBIGYAN NIYO KO NGAYON hahahaha.

httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9F9q_k5TWqo

The thing about love
Is I never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, I want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It`s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you`re in love

And it feels like it`s the first time
That anybody’s ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that I’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

When you tell me you`re in love…
Say it again.

-Marie Digby | Say It Again

Bokeh

15 Sunday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Geekdom, Life Oh Life, Photo Blog

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analogies, blah-blah, kilcher~isms

bokeh | uploaded by kilcher

From wikipedia:

Bokeh (from the Japanese boke ぼぁE “blur E is a photographic term referring to the appearance of out-of-focus areas in an image produced by a camera lens. Different lens bokeh produces different aesthetic qualities in out-of-focus backgrounds, which are often used to reduce distractions and emphasize the primary subject. The effect itself is the circle of confusion, an image of the aperture convolved by the image itself.

So what now?

Well, I dunno. My head aches everytime I think of blurry and undefined parts in the daily grind — literally and figuratively. I struggle to give definition to everything. I want to categorize, define, and put everything into its own place. I want clarity. I can’t help it, it’s like my factory setting or whatever.

But sometimes I ask myself, why am I not interested in looking at the blurred parts? Why does it feel too mendoukusai for me to wade through the undefined things in life and just enjoy the whole process while it lasts? Why is it too taxing to take in a, let’s say, a metaphor and think about all its possible meanings? I know that most of the time things are not WYSIWYG and that most of the time the most interesting and important things happen in the blurred parts, in the hidden source code, in the background that no one seems to pay attention to. There are no edges, there is no clarity, and everything seems to just fade or merge into each other. There is a challenge in there somewhere, looking at a bokeh photo, I mean. You will find yourself asking questions like “what is this person trying to hide anyway?” and “omg, am I ever gonna recognize what those blurred little circles are?”

Anyway, yeah, so bokeh photos are fun and I used to be able to enjoy looking at the blurred parts. But lately, I can’t seem to push myself to make an effort in trying to imagine what those blurry shapes might be. I just can’t. I dunno, did I just suddenly lose my interest in it? Or did my attention span just finally reach its limit? Or did I just suddenly don’t care anymore? I dunno, but right now, I just can’t. No, not anymore.

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Note: I’m still hankering to buy that 50mm f1.8 lens though. Sa literal na bokeh, masaya ako 😀

Note 02: Walang sense ang entry na to. Bokeh rin siya. 😀

Disgusting

15 Sunday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in WNBA

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basketball, houston comets, seattle storm, Sports, WNBA

WHAT THE FUCK?!

THEY GOT MORONS OFFICIATING THE SEATTLE-HOUSTON GAME.

ONE OF THE MOST DISGUSTING OFFICIATING I’VE EVER KNOWN.

“(‘&#(‘&”(‘&!PFUA”&(‘&!!!

Forces! Forces! Ugh!

12 Thursday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Geekdom, Life Oh Life

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Ahahahaha! Nahilo ka ba? O malamang naasar na at di na lang pinansin itong post na to (pero kung ganun eh di hindi mo na nababasa itong mga daldal ko na to)? Ako rin nahilo eh. Isang malaking imahe na lang siya sa akin, wala akong nakikitang mga formula or hieroglyphic symbols. Para na lang siyang painting — abstract painting, to be exact.

O di bale, linisin natin ang ang image, tanggalin ang mga computations, at itira ang mga free-body diagrams.

Haha, wala pa rin. Puro arrows na lang nakikita ko. Arrows representing forces. Forces that need to be resolved into a single resultant (with magnitude and direction ^_^).

Kasi ganito yan, wala namang mga pangyayari pero pakiramdam ko andaming nangyayari (potek kahit ako nalabuan dun ah). Pakiramdam ko lang. Feeling ko lang. OMG, Virginia Woolf mode ba ito (hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin tapos basahin ang The Hours)? Enihu, andaming forces papasok, nakakaloka, hindi ko alam kung saang direksyon ako titingin, magpo-pokus, magbubuhos ng pansin. Andaming forces din papalabas — napakarami kong gustong gawin, pero walang oras, parating pagod, at madalas nang sumakit ang ulo ko ngayon.

Naalala ko tuloy yung mga Free Body Diagrams noon sa ES 11 (Statics of Rigid Bodies) at ES 12 (Dynamics of Rigid Bodies). Andami-daming arrows na nakaturo sa, let’s say, isang box, or isang slab of rock, or isang kotse, or whatever. Tas ire-resolve mo yan, magkakaron ng resultant force that will make the body move (ES 12) or mahahanap mo yung isang unknown force na makakapag-balance sa body na yun at makakapagpanatili sa kanya sa equilibrium (ES 11). Potek, ano kaya ang pakiramdam nung box na yun (or slab of rock, or kotse, or whatever)? Nagugulumihanan din kaya siya habang ang tagal-tagal nung estudyante (ako at ang sanlaksang mga eng’gots na olats sa ES) i-solve yung tinginingining na problem sa problem set or exam? Haha, teka bakit ko ba pinoproblema eh wala namang pakiramdam ang box or slab of rock or kotse or whatever? At hmmmm, pwede ko palang ihalintulad ang sarili ko sa box or slab of rock or kotse or whatever wahahaha.

PS — Ang gulo ko haha. Umulan kasi (huwaaaat?). Ganun yata kapag walang tulog (hello, insomnia) at saka nababasa ng ulan, nagiging monster, well scratch that out, nagiging MALABONG MONSTER. Raaawrr!

PPS — Naku, kung nagganito na ko dati nung ES 11 at ES 12, hindi sana ako nabuwiset nang malala at naburaot sa kakairitang mga subject na yan.

PPPS — Ugh. Kelan ba matatapos itong phase na to? Ayoko na mag-discuss ng mga konseptong ganito pero di ko mapigilan.

PPPPS — Hindi ko na maalala kung san ko nakuha yung first two images. Nag-google lang ako eh. Hehe.

Kusang Lalayo

11 Wednesday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Muzzak

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At sa aking pagkubli
Hampas ng araw pagdamdam ng gabi
Tulog ang iyong mga kamay
Di nako makapag-antay

Isang umaga muling aahon
At sisikat sa mga panahon
Na tayong pang dalawa
Masayang pagsasama

Buong araw ng pag-agos
Kailan ang huling unos
Di alam kung tatakbo
Kusang lalayo sayo

Isang umaga muli ng pag-iisa
Walang mayakap at makasama
Pusong pilit na sinugatan
Landas kong karaniwan

、EUp Dharma Down | Pag-agos 、E/p>

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Density and Focus

11 Wednesday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Geekdom, Life Oh Life

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analogy, density, kilcher~isms, physics

In physics, density is mass (m) per unit volume (V), the ratio of the amount of matter in an object compared to its volume.

In case of a homogeneous substance, the formula for density is:

where, in SI Units:

ρ (rho) is the density of the substance, measured in kg/m3
m is the mass of the substance, measured in kg
V is the volume of the substance, measured in m3

Density can also be defined as concentration — the spatial property of being crowded together.

Pero keber diyan sa formula na yan. Panggulo lang yan hahaha. What I really want to talk about is a person’s being dense. As in, tipong nasa harapan na niya yung isang bagay na dapat ma-gets niya, hindi pa rin niya nakikita. Dense. Ganung tipo. Iyung sobrang oblivious to subtle hints, hindi maka-recognize ng mga ginormous signs even if those signs danced naked in front of them.

In a way, pwede pa rin i-relate yung formula. Sabihin natin parang screen siya in front of the person, pang-filter kung baga ng light na papunta at pabalik sa eyes, pang-limit ng kung gaano ka-clear ang nakikita. The more mass over unit volume, mas maraming particles na nagsisiksikan, lumiliit yung spaces in between, para mas matakpan yung mata. Ergo, lalong lumalabo yung tingin nung tao, lalong hindi niya nakikita, lalong hindi niya narerecognize yung mga signs na dapat naman nakikita niya. Mas dense, mas bulag. Keri?

Anyway, walang point ito haha. Gusto ko lang uriratin ang sarili ko. Ang alam ko kasi, hindi naman ako dense. May kung anong warning bells akong super-sensitive kapag may kakaibang pangyayari na sa paligid ko. Like may isang pangyayari noon, I could see the whole bloody scenario months bago pa naging klaro ang lahat (hindi ako dense or sadyang feeling lang talaga ako — I’m picking the former :P). May kung anu-anong passive-aggressive tactics pa akong ginawa nun para lang ma-ward-off siya. Kasi nung nakita ko na agad yung signs, dapat nip the whole thing in the bud pa lang before everything gets ugly, di ba?

Focus – maximum clarity or distinctness of an image rendered by an optical system. Also the adjustment of the distance setting on a lens to define the subject sharply.

Eh pero minsan din kasi, sa iba rin tayo naka-tingin, sa iba ang focus natin, kaya minsan mayroon din tayong namimiss. Parang focusing lang yan sa photography eh. Kapag sobrang taas ng aperture value mo (mababang f-stop, like f/1.4, for example), isa lang yung pwede mo i-focus. Either yung nasa likuran, or yung nasa harapan. Ako pakiramdam ko sa malayo ako naka-focus, hindi ko nakikita yung mga bumubulaga sa harapan ko. Hindi ako siguro dense talaga, baka I’m just busy looking at the big picture kaya I’m missing the significant little details. Or baka rin it’s the other way around, I’ve been trying to concentrate all my attention and energy on something kaya I’m missing the big picture.

Ah ewan haha. Ang gulo ko na naman. Hindi na ako magtataka kung walang maka-gets neto. Kahit ako hindi ko rin naiintindihan eh. At kumusta naman, patapos na itong entry na to, hindi ko pa rin mapagdesisyunan kung dense nga ba talaga ako or nag-de-dense-dense-an lang. Aaaaaarrrrggghhh, wala akong makitang kung ano. Baka dense nga talaga siguro ako.

Ikaw — ano sa tingin mo?

I Need Therapy

10 Tuesday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Geekdom, Life Oh Life

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Ergo, I will re-design this site.

Or maybe a total shift.

Joomla!

Bahala na desu.

Thrown Away

09 Monday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Life Oh Life, Photo Blog

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Napakaraming metapora ang pwede mong maisip sa larawang yan.

Itinapon.

Hinindian.

Inayawan.

O di kaya sadyang hindi na lang binigyan ng kaukulang pansin.

Rejected.

Unrequited.

Kawawa naman ang nagbigay niyan.

Pero kailangan niyang tanggapin na may mga bagay talaga sa buhay na wala kang kontrol, na may mga resultang hindi mo inaasahan, na hindi lahat ng inaalayan mo ng lahat mo ay tatanggapin iyun nang buong-buo.

Sa panaginip lang nangyayari yun. Hindi sa tunay na buhay.

It’s the stuff of fantasies but never of reality.

Kaya isipin na lang na ganun talaga, ganun talaga, ganun talaga, lintek naman na yan talaga.

Pero ayos lang yan. Kasi sabi nga ng tatay ni Calvin (ng Calvin and Hobbes), “it builds character”.

“It builds character.”

Para namang nakakawala ng sakit yang “it builds character” na yan.

Kung ang buong pagkataong inaalay mo ba ay itinapon, anong karakter pa ang mabubuo mo?

Meron pa ba? Meron pa kaya?

Itinapon.

Hinindian.

Inayawan.

Kawawa talaga ang nagbigay niyang bulaklak na yan.

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Nakita ko ang bulaklak na yan na nakalupasay sa may semento habang ako ay nakatayo sa harap ng Minami-Osawa Eki kanina at naghahanap ng mga lolo’t lolang magkasama na pwede kong isali sa aking They Come in Two’s set. Naintriga ako sa maaaring naging istorya niyang itinapong bulaklak.

Haha, pero baka kelangan i-apply dito ang Occam’s Razor  Principle (shave away all unnecessary assumptions and get to the point the easiest way possible). Baka naman kasi nalaglag lang siya ng kung sinuman at hindi naman talaga ni-reject. Hehe. Di ba?

Whew!

08 Sunday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Sports, WNBA

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basketball, detroit shock, seattle storm, WNBA

After that nightmare back-to-back road trip (which included a loss to Detroit because of Katie Smith), we finally got some sort of revenge.

(7-2)
1 2 3 4 Total
Detroit 13 15 19 20 67 Final
Seattle 19 21 17 18 75

(6-3)

STAT LINES:

G SUE BIRD — 14 pts 8 asts 3 rebs

F/C LAUREN JACKSON — 24 pts (9 of  11) 6 rebs 5 asts 3 blks

G/F SHERYL SWOOPES — 15 pts 2 rebs 3 asts 2 blks

Wooohooo! Good on Birdy for that dagger three (woohoo Birdy!). At least they won. I can now start my day. 😀

Woohoo Glam!

06 Friday Jun 2008

Posted by kilcher in Muzzak

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The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger’s hand
An assault my defenses systematically fail to withstand

‘Cause you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be-all and end-all
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I’m in your arms I start believing
(It’s here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
…anyway

more about “Woohoo Glam!“, posted with vodpod

The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed

That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I

Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I’m in your arms I start believing
(It’s here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway, anyway

Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
And we’ve got to stop ourselves believing
(It’s here to stay)
‘Cos love is only a feeling
Anyway.

【The Darkness | Love is only a Feeling 、E/p>
Woohoo, mahal ko ang The Darkness, yebaaaaaaaaaah!

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