{"id":45,"date":"2005-04-14T13:54:59","date_gmt":"2005-04-14T04:54:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.kilcher04.net\/2005\/04\/14\/scrutiny\/"},"modified":"2005-04-14T13:54:59","modified_gmt":"2005-04-14T04:54:59","slug":"scrutiny","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/?p=45","title":{"rendered":"Scrutiny"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>i\u2019ve always feared<br \/>\nlooking straight into your eyes.<br \/>\nit makes me stand at the edge,<br \/>\nmy nerves will betray any lies.<\/p>\n<p>all my life i\u2019ve built my walls<br \/>\naround me to keep dangers at bay.<br \/>\nthen you came bounding down the halls,<br \/>\nlooked straight, unaware much that day\u2026<\/p>\n<p>looked straight ignoring the shields<br \/>\nand looked determined to stay.<\/p>\n<p>and my defenses crashed,<br \/>\nthe impenetrable shell cracked,<br \/>\nthe steely resolve came undone,<br \/>\nthe protection, the security, all gone.<\/p>\n<p>i feel naked under your stare,<br \/>\nno pockets to hide, nary a spare;<br \/>\nno cover against the biting cold<br \/>\nnothing else but do as i\u2019m told.<\/p>\n<p>i pray you do not use this against me<br \/>\nfor you hold sway my heart<br \/>\nin the palm of you hand.<br \/>\njust one look through me<br \/>\nwrapped around your finger i\u2019ll be.<\/p>\n<p>i\u2019ve always been wary<br \/>\nof letting myself be under your scrutiny.<br \/>\nbut you\u2019ve cast a spell upon me,<br \/>\nenmeshed in that spell i remain\u2026<\/p>\n<p>\u2026wholeheartedly.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>i\u2019ve always feared looking straight into your eyes. it makes me stand at the edge, my nerves will betray any &hellip;<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/?p=45\">Continue reading &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[13],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/45"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=45"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/45\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=45"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=45"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.journal.kilcher04.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=45"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}