Sardinas Redux

Crowded Tokyo Train

Matagal-tagal na rin pala mula dun sa huling maipit ako sa mala-sardinas na tren. Ni hindi ko na nga maalala kung kailan yun. Ito yung pakiramdam mo nandidilim na ang paningin mo at parang andaming dots (ilang dpi kaya yun– eheerrrm*nerd*eherrrrm) na everywhere tapos kapag naitaas mo yung kamay mo para mag-reach sa (unreachable) hawakan eh hindi mo na maibaba hanggang umabot ka na dun sa kung san ka talaga pupunta tapos hindi ka na makahinga kasi heller nasa mukha mo na yung likod (sana likod nga yun) ng kung sinuman yung katabi-kaharap-kalikod mo tapos ito talaga yung sobrang nakakapagod na pakiramdam mo ikaw si Leaning Tower of Pisa dahil napipisa ka na sa kakasiksik ng mga tao sa yo.

Hay, grabedad.

Nangyari ito kanina pag-uwi namin. Ang saya pa naman dahil yay pwedeng umuwi nang maaga dahil may (super-late) end-of-year eklat sa company. Nagtatanong pa ko kung anong gagawin ko sa free time ko dahil nga ang aga namin lumabas. Pero naman naman naman pagdating sa station, lekat na yan, siyempre kelangan late ang train. (Hindi namin ma-gets bakit basta late). Sa isang iglap nawala na lang bigla yung pinakamimithing free time.

Ayun, so late nga yung train di ba? Siyempre dumami nang dumami nang dumami yung nag-aabang na gustong sumakay na halos mapuno na yung platform. Tapos dumating na finally yung train. Yebah Hachiojiへ! Goodness gracious great balls of fire. Eto na bonggang-bonggang gitgitan woohoo! Grabe na ang hirap huminga at gumalaw at mag-stay upright kasi merong naka-lean sa amin na ilang persons ba yun. Iritasyones. Sakit ng likod ko. Super strained pa ang tuhod dahil hindi ka direchong nakatayo. At mula sa station na kung saan kami sumakay mantra ko na ang “sana Machida na”.

Andami ko reklamo haha, parang di pa talaga ko nasanay no?

Pero sa totoo lang hindi na talaga. Oo, ganito ang drama ko dati, pero circa 2007 pa yun. Nung bago pa ko nagkasakit na parang may elepanteng nakaupo sa akin (ibang kwento naman to). Enihu, kaya siguro ako nanghina nang bonggang-bongga at nagkasakit noon. Eh sa araw-araw na dumaan, ganun ang nangyayari. Pagpasok sa umaga. Pag-uwi sa gabi. Ganun pa din. Sardinas kung sardinas. Magkapalit na kayo ng mukha, likod, pwet, at kung anu-ano pa, ayos lang. Mapagod ka na nang sobra-sobra. Mahawa ka pa nung kung anong meron yung katabi mo. Keber lang. Basta makasakay sa train at makarating sa paroroonan nang on time.

Gigil.

Pero buti na lang winter. Buti na lang talaga. Kasi kung summer pa to, ewan ko na lang. Ayoko na lang ipilit. Magpapa-late na lang ako siguro ng uwi.

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Blurry

Blurry

Everything’s so blurry
and everyone’s so fake
and everybody’s empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

{ Puddle of Mud }

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That’s supposed to be my Christmas Tree — I know, black and blue, how festive — but it’s all blurred because, duh, BOKEH, and the blurring is supposed to be all profound and shite. But whatever, I guess I just have to accept that this year’s Christmas is just going to be one of the suckiest ever. After all, it’s just a day. They don’t even celebrate it here in this part of the universe.

/Obligatory Grinch~ing

Reminiscing via Imago

Sick and tired of taking the mellow
beating of the stupid games we play.
We run around but I’m done needing this hurt
I’ve stayed too long but I’m taking you with me
You’re too beautiful to be seen here

No harm done, you’re under repair.
No harm done, you’re under repair.
No harm done, you’re under repair.

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Nagtatanong
Bakit mahirap
Sumabay sa agos
Ng iyong mundo

Nagtataka
Simple lang naman sana
Ang buhay
Kung ika’y matino

Sabihin sa akin lahat ng lihim mo
Iingatan ko
Ibaling sa akin ang problema mo
Kakayanin ko

Pikit mata
Kong iaalay
Ang buwan at araw
Pati pa sapatos kong suot

Nagtatanong
Simple lang naman sana
Ang buhay
Kung ika’y lumayo

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Kay tagal kong sinusuyod
Ang buong mundo
Para hanapin,
Para hanapin ka

Nilibot ang distrito
Ng iyong lumbay
Pupulutin, pupulutin ka

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Hindi mo na ko kelangang tanungin. Para sa iyo lahat yan.

Mother Nature is Crazy

melancholy

It hasn’t been that long since the temperature around here was in the 30’s and we were sweating non-stop if we even dared go out of the door for more than a minute. Summer was such a pain and really it was one of the worst times of the year for me (Winter sucks too but hey at least we have snowboarding during that season so all’s well for me) that I always wanted the months of June, July, August, and part of September to just go zoom by and be gone already.

Now usually by this time, we (and by that, I mean, I) will be eagerly anticipating the awesome Autumn weather and go crazy with the roaming around everywhere to snap photos of every yellow, red, orange leaves that dare present themselves in my line of sight. It’s supposed to be just around 18°C cold. Well, up to three days ago, it was. But now it’s down to around 8°C~12°C. Dang. What gives, Mother Nature? Did you forget Autumn and decided to just jump straight ahead to Winter? Did you just skip my favorite season this year? Grrr. I hate you.

Give me a letter L for Loser

There’s always that time when I’m trying really hard to remember a certain word but try as I might, I just couldn’t. And then when I ask for help from my friends to help me remember (because hello, memory gap ftw) and even magnanimously give them a letter clue, they just always laugh at me (thanks, guys). But heh, no matter how much I whine about how they always make fun of me when this happens, I guess they do have a point.

The Arcade with lots of O’s

Ish: Nakaka-miss ang high school.
Tinats: SM North and all. Lalo na yung arcade dun sa top floor.
Ish: Oo, oo.
Tinats: Ano na ba tawag dun —
Ish: Hindi ko maalala …
Tinats: Alam ko yan eh, madaming “O” yan sa word na yan …
{Silence}
Tinats: Hahahahahaha, QUANTUM!
{Silence}
Ish: Nasan ang O dun?!

That French Song From Way Back When

Tinats: Ish, alam mo ba yung French song nung college na parating kinakanta ng everyone?
Ish: Ha? Anong French song?
Tinats: Yung — nanananana nananaaaaa nananaaaa?
Ish: Hahaha ano yan?
Tinats: Ewan ko basta merong “F” dun sa name ng artist.
Ish: Ayan ka na naman sa give me a letter na yan.
Tinats: OR sa title nung song, basta may “F” yan, for sure.
Ish: Ewan ko sa yo.
{At Home}
Tinats: Jemu, Jemu, naalala mo ba yung French song nung college na parating kinakanta ng everyone?
Jemu: Ha? Anong French song?
Tinats: Yung — nanananana nananaaaaa nananaaaa? Basta may letter “F” dun somewhere eh.
Jemu: Teka, Google lang katapat niyan.
{Super duper long pause}
Jemu: On Ne S’Aimera Plus Jamais!
Tinats: Uh oh, walang letter “F”. Sinong artist?
Jemus: Larusso.
Tinats: Double uh oh, walang letter “F”.
{The Next Morning}
Ish: O ano — walang “F” no?!
Tinats: OO NA, OLATS NA KO!

Ice Cream For Sure

Ish: Summer na!
Tinats: Ice Cream! As if pwede ako. Stupid throat.
{Pause}
Tinats: Ano yung ice cream shop sa Tachikawa?
Ish: (Naghihintay na ng blooper to)
Tinats: Yung may letter B?
Ish: (Hindi na nagsasuggest)
Tinats: Haagen Dazs?
Ish: Letter B nga eh!
Tinats: Lady Borden?
Ish: Walang store ng Lady Borden!
Tinats: O mali na ko. Teka, hindi letter B. Letter D yung meron!
Ish: Hahahaha … blooper na naman to …
Tinats: Tse. Yabang. Letter D yun. For sure!
Ish: Wala nang naniniwala sa for sure mo.
{Long Pause Until Machida}
Tinats: Frak.
Ish: Mali ka na namaaaaan!
Tinats: Stupid Baskin-Robbins. Tama na yung B eh!
Ish: For sure pala ha.